| i copied krisay |
[03 May 2004|03:03pm] |
when i saw that krisay got a new lj, i decided it was time for a change.
after much trial and error with user names i came to one i like. it`s awesome.
you`ll know it when you see it, and if not drop a comment here and i`ll fill ya in.
farwell xkillxcorex. maybe i`ll sell this on ebay?!
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[03 May 2004|01:20am] |
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ok, my brother got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeee, im so glad. this means he probably isn`t going to have to go to iraq! i was so thrilled. he is leaving for mexico tomorrow, that lucky boy. he better be careful.
lauren had to go to the emergency room last night. :( i hope she gets better. i was going to call her back, but it got late and well, i was busy!
sometimes i wish i could just take back things that i said, even if i didn`t mean them when i said them. i`m really sick of people thinking i`m a bitch too. IM NOT. i just speak my mind and yet i say things without thinking at times. and what i said, what im talking about, was one of those stupid non-thinking moments. i had never an intension on really following through with it. wow could i be anymore vague? that`s ok, there`s only two people that i want to understand that anyways. and if they read this i`m sure they will.
but i`m the happiest i`ve been in a long time, so i`m not going to try and let things bring me down that i shouldn`t be worried about.
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[02 May 2004|04:13pm] |
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my brother is awesome.
i got to see him today. and he`s gonna try to get me in at his old work. he told his manager, "she`s pretty much just like me in girl form." his manager then said, "oh so we might have to worry about her hitting on all the guys that work here???" hahaha, nah, my brother is a flirt to the maxx when it comes to girls, me however..i dunno. i`d rather work than goof off.
pleaaaaaaaaaaase god let me get this job.
rob also told me he is trying to get a job in madison or something so he doesn`t have to go to iraq....but i thought he was just saying he wanted to go? see, i knew he didn`t want to go. he`s such a liar! i hope he gets it.
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| things that make you go...oh shit bitch! |
[02 May 2004|12:12am] |
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think back 10 years.....
what were your dreams?
who did you want to be like?
where was your special hideaway where your mom or dad always knew you were but let you think it was your secret place?
if someone would have told you what your daily life is like now, would you try and change it?
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| i love april |
[01 May 2004|09:15am] |
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now that was a party. ya`ll missed out for real! i`ve never seen that much alcohol in my life. but that`s not the only reason i loved that party. john met a lot of the people i`m friends with, and then some more that i didn`t remember. (apparently they were there at kyles stupid thing last weekend.) it`s so nice to be with someone who is willing to talk to your friends and socialize and have a good time.
i saw jake for the first time in like almost three months. him, carrie and lauren looked really coked out. true story. lauren reminded me of frizbee from spun...which is kinda scary.
i heard some of the coolest songs last night. john brought his cds and became the car dj for the ride to bayshore. (where the party was at) there was this one that sounded like it had canon d playing in it. it was so badass though!
danielle is home!!!!! weeee, i missed her, and robert. robert is probably one of my favorite people. he`s so fucking funny and him and i laugh about things that sometimes only him and i would laugh at. i talked to my brother last night too. (via text msg) he kept trying to tell me r. kelly was looking for his room key to my hotel so he could pee on me! thanks bobby!!!!!!!!
woooooooooooow
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[30 Apr 2004|07:41am] |
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holy crap. i woke up at 6am today feeling so awake.
i`ve been watching fox 6 wake up news and according to them starting tomorrow wells & state street from 11th to 35th will be turning into two way streets for good. i`ve had 2.7 cups of coffee and a cigarette. i`ve never had a cigarette this early and didn`t feel sick.
something came over me this morning, at about 7:15 i made my sister peaches and cream oatmeal, woke her up, and told her to rise and shine! i even offered to call her in, had i a more adult voice. i told her if she skipped out today, i wouldn`t rat on her no matter what happens. (provided she doesn`t get hurt in a car accident or anything...and if brandon doesn`t show up here til after i leave for the evening) yeah sure she pisses me off...a lot but i guess when i`m happy it doesn`t matter how annoyed i get with her and i want her to know that i`m not always a bitch,
awwwwwww, i`m such a sweet sister.
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| "you`re sassy" |
[30 Apr 2004|12:06am] |
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took a trip to the lake today. even though it was windy as fuck it was so nice outside, i couldn`t pass that up! beeno and i texted eachother, mostly talked about the weather. we`re nerds, but hey, she loves pongo.
i got back home around ummm noonish and watched van wilder, good movie. cept its kinda sorta cheesy but thats alright. after that lauren called and before i knew it justin and carrie were here as well. we ended up at aprils. yeah i drank but nothing like the last time. in fact i even went home early because, well i didn`t feel like getting burned out yet. justin is having a birthday party tomorrow at a hotel and i`m invited so you know what that means.....everyone who wants to go should call me. mmhmmm.
i almost didn`t have any cigarettes today, it was frightful.
ps- i just spilled sloppy joe shit all over my pants....who'da thunk they'f be sloppy...geeze!!!!!!
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| ak 47 for the niggaz whos really looking for heaven and a nine for you chumps |
[29 Apr 2004|01:10am] |
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i got to cruise hwy 100 with john tonight. i don`t think i made him too nervous driving. really though, i`m a good driver, for the most part.
before he came over i played with salem outside for about an hour. that cat is nuts lemme tell you.
the cutest thing in the world happened tonight, pongo & john fell asleep in my room. one was on the floor, the other was in my arms...you figure it out. ♥
it`s soooooooooooooo fucking nice outside right now. it`s been a really good night. it`s like comfortable yet excited outside. i like when the weather matches my feelings.
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[26 Apr 2004|11:33pm] |
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you know, yesterday sucked. but i never thought that today would have been worse. wow was i wrong. so halfway through watching spun i get bombarded with text messages. i pick up my phone and this is what i see:
"well it looks as its my turn to serve my country. sunday night i was put on alert to go over with an infantry unit because of my skills. i`ll keep in touch. i am one of the few intel analysts in the state. hey v, freedom isn`t free its just my turn. dont worry it`ll make mom worse."
up until today i have never been speechless with tears streaming down my face. he`s avoided going over there for so long, why do they have to send him? i know he signed up for this since he was 17 (he`s 25 now) but that`s my brother. and i guess if he does go, it won`t be til june 15th, but then why send him at all? isn`t the U.S. suppose to be out of there by June 30th? why send my brother for 15 days?
i was the first person in the family he told.
today was also the day my mom went to get her new car. i couldn`t just tell her something like that before we went to get it. i had to sit with her in my car on the drive to the dealership pretending everything was fine. i had to sit with her in the dealership watching her sign paper after paper to get a car she deserves with a smile on my face. and then when we got back home, i had to tell her robert left a message on the machine for her to hear. i took the dogs out while she listened and when i came back in i could hear her crying.
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| happy hangover |
[25 Apr 2004|12:49pm] |
well lets see here:
-woke up in my car after i dont even know how long
-drove home and graced my lawn with my upchuck reflex
-fell asleep feeling like i got the shit kicked out of me
-woke up feeling drunk still
-went to get my shirts and dvd
-i`m still missing a shirt
& to top it all fucking off
-i saw my dream car sitting in his drive way
as if my fucking day couldnt get any worse right? and no one is here. i`m going to go now.
***update***
i`m going to change my number tomorrow so if you want me to give you the new number then lemme know. reason: i am sick of Tim's bullshit. yaaaaaaah, i`ve changed it like...man, too many times. this is probably the 5th time. but there is no way he is going to get my number. ok that is all.
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| holy fuck |
[25 Apr 2004|04:04am] |
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i was suppose to be home like...230? my god. i never want to drink again. i just feel like shit. kyles a bitch and i wish i could smash his face in with a brick. i miss john and i just vomitted all over my front lawn, i seriously think i never want to drink again. it`s disgusting.
but, i miss john. :( i hate being drunk. i never want to do it again. i just want to curl up in johns arms and fall asleep. :( my head is spinning.
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| who drank my apple juice? |
[24 Apr 2004|12:32am] |
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:) :) :) :) :) i got to see zachary today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6 hours of drooling, laughing, and smiling from the cutest baby i`ve ever seen. i think my most favorite moment from tonight was when he fell asleep in my lap. (minus the drool that was all over my hand) he`s about 4 months old and is amanda's son. i`ve known that girl since 8th grade. i had a blast fo reelz. we watched a movie, played cranium and then i watched the kids play crazy taxi. which has the best offspring song ever made. all i want "ya ya ya ya ya" hahaha!
i`m glad i went there instead of kyle's stupid party. he called me again around 4 and said he was on his way to milwaukee and that he should be here at midnight and that i should meet up with him at his party at his cousins place....yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah. i dunno what he is thinking but whatever that may be, we are not thinking alike. he`s cool and all...when he isn`t trying to get a piece from anything with tits and a cooter. maybe i`ll stop by melissa's tomorrow and say hi. i guess that would be the nice thing to do but then again, when am i nice? psssssh, never. ha.
my hair is really icky. all this hair product crap to make it look prettyful. i had my interview today and i think it went rather well and i`ll call em back on monday to see if they`ve decided yet. i really need this job. really.
i tried talking to chris today but i successfully failed. it`s complicated. but, oh well what can you do? exactly, nothing.
what's cooler than being cool?
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| AFI better not crash in a plane...crash |
[23 Apr 2004|01:59am] |
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i`ve got friends. i`ve got family. i`ve got pets. i`ve almost got a job.
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i`ve got someone who means something special to me.
it`s going to take time but i think it`s definately worth it.
wish me luck i have an interview tomorrow. BEDTIME SUCKAS!
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| fuckin shit |
[22 Apr 2004|03:20pm] |
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so i get to my interview and it turns out it was suppose to be yesterday? i told the manager "i called to double check and meghan (whoever that dumb twat is) said it was thursday at 3...." i apologized for the misunderstanding and the manager said, "oh no problem, she must have gotten the dates screwed up, can you come in tomorrow at the same time?" i said yeah and she goes, "cool, don`t sweat it."
and i looked/look fucking sexy too... psssh i`m wearing the same thing tomorrow cuz...cuz i can.
damn, i was really hoping i`d get to come home and call my friends and stuff and be like, "i have a job again!" now i have to wait another damn day. (><) <---angry eyes
but from the sounds of it, it seems as though i already have it. lets hope so.
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| fuck this |
[22 Apr 2004|01:35pm] |
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| we agreed her boobs were hot from a profile shot |
[21 Apr 2004|01:08am] |
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he makes me feel:
-wanted
-giggly
-happy (not just in the pants area, heehee)
-smart
-free
his name is john♥. i am so glad i can talk to him for just as long as i can kiss him, well...that's a lotta talking. ;) but really, i like the way we make eachother smile. i like the way we can openly talk about things that most people might get jealous about. i really like this. how many times have i said like? 4.
my mom and i hung out during the day today. it was cool. we talked about a lot of things. like columbine and just our views on parenting. it`s so cool to have a mom/parent like her. she totally understands me for the most part and i don`t know what i would do without her. i love my momma. she r0cks, but not as hard as me.
ps- earlier in the afternoon i stepped outside to have a cig, and this wigger boy was walking down the street. all of the sudden i start hearing "please marshall please let me suck your cock.." he`s singing to himself while listening to his cd or something and it was so loud. i kinda just stood there like a deer stunned in the headlights and when he finally looked over, i waved. he stopped singing for the rest of the way down my street,
moral of the story kids: make sure no one is around when you start rockin out with your headphones on, it`s hilarious for me but embarassing for you.
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| Vous ne pouvez pas passer allez |
[06 Apr 2004|02:55pm] |
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AMIS SEULEMENT
je suis malade de quelques personnes lisant ceci et obtenant le renversement avec ce que je dois dire. L'obtiens de décider qui lit ceci, et qui pas Ainsi ne maltraitez pas le privledge.
♥</br>
vanessa
(in other words, comment and maybe i`ll add you)
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